Saturday, 12 April 2014

where for art thou, perfect blazer?

I have been looking for a blazer for years, and that's not even an exaggeration. I just want a simple, plain, black blazer that looks better undone that needing to be done up. is that so hard to find? Yes. I try on every blazer I see, and they are just not the ones. I want a blazer to wear with everything; dresses, trousers, jeans, leggings. I'm looking for something that fits like this

so it can obviously be found. all these lucky ladies found theirs! am I just the wrong shape?! I will not give up my search, so watch this space. 

Saturday, 5 April 2014

So what's happened since we last spoke?

I think this should be a regular feature, probably for a Monday in reality. And for those of you who listen to Greg James on radio one please ignore the familiarity.

-Since my absence, my sister has given birth to a beautiful baby boy name Isaac Charles Peter. Isaac's sister Isabelle is now 18 months so Natalie certainly has her hands full! 

-I have gained more confidence in my job, and I think I've found my feet a bit more. I had my three month review and had feedback that I'm doing well. 

-We had Mother's Day, and I got my mum a little plant and a plant pot :)

-Michael and I went to Bournemouth for a couple of days away, we went to their sealife centre and on the pier. 

-I've become well and truly addicted to a particular brand of hummus

-The flat finally has internet! 

-Michael finally moved out of his room on camp, so it's definitely official that we've moved in together 

-I've got my highest score in bejewelled blitz 

And that's about it really, what have I kissed with you guys? Please update me I'm very interested! Xx

Since when did being an adult become such hard work?

I know you're going to look at me and think, really? are you so young you didn't know?

But life after uni is really hard. After uni you aren't an independent learner who can spend all of their time sitting comfortably whilst reading academic articles with a cup of something nice and pondering you thoughts on them. You can't leisurely write down your ideas and formulate a coherent essay. You don't get time to yourself. Your time now equals money, and that's what it comes down to. 

I come home from work every day and I'm drained. Every minute of every day I'm questioning information, analysing conversations, making decisions, assessing risk. It never stops, and you never really get a break. And that is just exhausting. 

So is that what being an adult is about? Your job taking everything you've got, and in return you get a healthy pay packet? I have to say, I didn't see that one coming. I've been lucky enough to enjoy every job I've had, and I haven't felt exhausted, I've felt motivated. But the reality that the career path I chose will exhaust me everyday is slightly daunting. Do these things become more managable, or do the tasks and concerns or questions just vary when you start to develop a different way of analysing them? 

Being an adult sucks, and I'd like to go back to being an academic now please. 


Ps. Sorry for the absence. I haven't felt like doing anything when I come in from work these days, there's a lot going on over here :)