I think I'm going to go with something from Tyler Knott Gregson today. Because it has a lot of meaning to me, especially in the current circumstances I find myself.
This quote applies to Michael and always has done, ever since I found it over a year ago when he was just my best friend. Missing someone is a peculiar thing. I have never lost someone close to me, or someone who was a big part of my life, so I couldn't comment on things like that. But I went off to uni, and left Michael at home, and then Michael went to Basic Training in the Army whilst I was still at uni, and after he passed out he then went to his base down South (I was still at uni), and now he's in Afghanistan (and I'm still at uni, ha). And through all of that, I've missed him. Like Tyler said, even when he's right next to me I miss him. Because I know he's going to be gone again soon, so I really need to soak him up right in that moment (and boy do I).
I'm not saying that missing him is a negative thing, apart from when I haven't heard from him for days and can barely focus on anything else. But it makes me appreciate every single conversation we have, every smile I see, every laugh I hear and every embrace we share. It makes me not take things for granted; nothing is mundane, nothing is ordinary. It's all out-of-this-world special, and that's the weed turning into a flower. That's what lets me know I can get through it all, that we're stronger than that and that I'll see him on the other side. And those flowers are so worth it.
I think I just like this quote because it hints at a bad side, but highlights the good side more. And that really is how I feel. I can't hug him until July, and he can't sit and stroke my hair for a few more months. But that's okay, because I know he wants to, and when he can, it'll mean everything to me.